social erosion, or, how do i even be on the internet anymore

heres one of those self-reflective posts or whatever, i hear its good to "blog"

Post-G+, my only RPGsphere social presence aside from my blogs has been @lithyscaphe

ButI don't read RPG twitter anymore, just due to how overwhelming the sheer quantity of content is. So I really only use it to post, and very rarely. which is poison for the algorithm.

I don't even read blogs anymore, with a few exceptions.

and I seem to find blogging about game content less fulfilling than just plugging away at nascent game content projects in silence and isolation. 

[self-rhetorically] why?

I have a catch-22 between posting on lithyscaphe and here

i wasn't posting on L because it seemed stressful to put the amount of effort i felt like it should deserve, compared to actually trying to finish projects. I still have a specific picture of what content i post there has to conform to, limiting my desire to post (not to mention the abysmal blogger editor). it's the place where PA exists. PA has gotten pretty big. A lot of people visit L for PA, and see other stuff that is there. 

if i was going to post more freely, i needed to a separate blog, without a potentially-large audience with a particuar set of assumptions that enforced my own assumptions about effort and content.  so, new blog, basically no audience, no editor fine-tuning, no pressure, more posting.

for a while.

 I think lack of engagement (yes, duh) and/or the vagaries of shifting interests and attention dried up my momentum for posting here.  now, every time i think i could maybe make a post, i look at the date of the last one, almost a year gone now, and then look at my traffic, and think what's the point?

and yet, if my game content/projects, which i genuinely enjoy creating, are never seen by anyone else,... 

some portion of lizard brain does want to see numbers go up on things i've made.

and if they exist, knowing there are other humans who are specifically interested in what i do would help me finish projects, or at least share useable content. But how i find that is a mystery right now.

i also do occasionally feel compelled to microblog ala twitter. but my use case is usually just to share stupid little jokes or tiny gameable ideas and get a few likes for a dopamine hit. this actually happened for me on G+, and early days after shifting to twitter.  I don't think either blog is suitable for that, literally because there is no like button. and if it isn't happening for me on twitter even after i had decent results initially, im not sure it will happen anywhere new where i have to build from the ground up...

but if i can hit "publish" on THIS, maybe there is yet hope. or something.